Review: So Much It Hurts (So Much It Hurts #1) by Melanie Dawn


Life is full of uncertainty, so what happens when a what-if from your past collides with your present?

Kaitlyn Thomas, a weary wife and mother, is taking a much needed getaway with her friends. All she wants to do is relax and rejuvenate on her weekend escape to the beach. Having a drink at the bar with the girls sounds like the perfect way to unwind. That is, until Kaitlyn hears a familiar voice from the stage that shakes her to her core. She grapples with her memory until Chris King, the lead singer of the band, walks up to her and eliminates the questions in her mind.

Chris King…the misunderstood bad boy who once saved her in ways that no one else could.

Kaitlyn’s friends beg to know the story behind this mystery man. Forced to revisit a painful past from which she has spent years trying to heal, Kaitlyn’s recollection of Chris awakens intense feelings that she has kept buried deep inside her heart. Has time changed him, or is he still the same person Kaitlyn fell in love with so many years ago?

Marriage vows are sacred, but temptation is a powerful thing.

Seeing Chris again has caused a war between her head and her heart. In the end, which one will win the battle? Facing a difficult decision, Kaitlyn just wants to be sure of one thing when she walks away from this weekend—no regrets.


There is so much I want to say about this book, but I want to share with you how it ended up on my reading list to begin with. Normally when I am looking for a new book to read, I check out the books on my Kindle and start there. I, like most of you, go on one-click binges. The downside to those binges is that sometimes the books get stuck in the Kindle and only hope to find their way out at some point.

This book ended up on my Kindle back in September, not because of one of those binges but because it was recommended to me by an author whose books have changed how I read books and I figured if the books she reads can stick in my soul the way the books she has written have, then any book she recommends I can’t go wrong with. So I immediately bought it and it has been hiding out on my Kindle just waiting to be read. When I realized at the end of 2013 how many fabulous books have been hanging out on my Kindle, I opened up my next read to our Facebook followers to pick. So Much It Hurts appeared on that list and I  thought to myself… “well, that one is on my Kindle already so let’s start there.”

Once again, I find an incredible amount of guilt consuming be because yet another fabulous book has been in hiding on that little electronic device.

This book was emotionally draining for me. I was torn about the situation and my own personal judgement calls, but when all was said and done and I read the last page of it, I just sat and thought. I kept thinking about it and it kept going through it all in my head. It was a lot to take in for one book. But it was a great storyline with great characters.

Kaitlyn is a wife and a stay at home mom. She has everything in her family. She adores her little guy more than life itself. But lately things have felt “off.” Her husband is always working and she is usually fast asleep long before he gets home. He has an assistant that he is as sweet as pie to but with his wife, the “I love you’s” and simple gestures have seemed to vanish. There is something missing in her relationship with her husband but she just keeps going because she has her little man to take care of and look out for.

So for Kaitlyn, a weekend away with the girls is just what she needs. But while on her adventure with her friends, her past collides full force with her present.

Chris was the odd new guy back in high school. People were afraid of him and his past, not willing to give him a chance to be a good guy. But back then, Kaitlyn though he was beautiful and she needed him more than she ever would have though. Kaitlyn had spent two years in high school in a less than ideal relationship but on the outside it was picture perfect. Chris saved her from that relationship and for the first time, Kaitlyn knew true love. Not just the image of perfect. But the cost of saving her was returning to something he didn’t want and she wasn’t prepared for.

Eight years later, they see each other. Everything comes rushing back for both of them. She had loved him. He had loved her. He would have done anything for her.  She had moved on with her life. But the reunion wasn’t certainly wasn’t what she expected and the outcome of the return was OMG!

This book was a hard book for me to review. It wasn’t because I didn’t love the book, I did love it tremendously. The writing was amazing and I really liked most of the characters in the book. But my moral compass and Kaitlyn’s point in a different direction. I had a hard time with that at one point in the book, which is why I had a problem with my star rating on this book.

But ultimately, the fact that I continued to think about this book long after it ended, was what got me. If the outcome of the book was enough to keep me thinking about the what-if’s in my own life, I would have given it fewer stars. But the fact of the matter is that a book like this has characters that I understood. I always wonder what happened to the one that got away.

What really got me was that Kaitlyn eventually found her strength to get out of that relationship in high school and move forward. Ultimately the evil one got what he deserved and she ultimately found a lasting love and had an amazing family. I really loved the ending of this book. What Chris did at the end was not only top-notch but stand-up. I am not sure a lot of guys would do the same thing given the chance and I really admired that in is character. But I really admired the strength that Kaitlyn’s husband had after all of Kaitlyn’s secrets were revealed. Again, top-notch and stand-up of him.


One response to “Review: So Much It Hurts (So Much It Hurts #1) by Melanie Dawn

  1. Pingback: Blog Tour: Then There Was You (So Much It Hurts #2) by Melanie Dawn **GIVEAWAY** | The Boyfriend Bookmark

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