Schizoaffective disorder: a mental illness in which a person experiences a combination of mood disorder and schizophrenia symptoms.
I know about this illness—very well—because I suffer from it. It’s been four years since my diagnosis, and ever since, I’ve been living in a dark hole. Voices constantly invading my thoughts. Hallucinations. All of which force me to question if what I’m experiencing is even reality.
But here I am, still hanging on, still breathing and living through it.
That is, until he stumbled into my life. Logan Reed. I don’t want any part of him. I’ve pushed him away, but he isn’t easily deterred. I’ve told him I’m different, but he doesn’t care. He’s trying to slowly break me down. I’m trying just as hard not to let him. He doesn’t know how truly damaged I am; what will happen when he does?
I know the truth—he’ll never be able to look at me the same way again. Just like everybody else.
There is no way to sugarcoat this book. It is higly intense and emotional. It broke every barrier that I could possibly have put in place and hit me so hard. It was amazingly written and hard to accept. It was moving, touching and so completely spell-binding. It was like nothing I have read before and I cannot imagine anything thing like this ever happening to anyone I know, but the reality is, this is a big reality for so many people out there. This book just moved me beyond words.
Jenna is different. She is beautiful on the outside but so tragically broken on the inside. She knows that when people see what is truly there, they will run. That’s what always happens. She doesn’t want to be looked at differently, she doesn’t want to battle this alone, but somehow both of those things occur on a regular basis. But the demons she faces on the inside are so much scarier than you could ever imagine. She knows she has an illness. She knows that she is not ok on the inside. But she is strong and she is determined. She will not let anyone in because once they find out, all bets are off and they will run leaving her all alone again.
Logan is just your average guy. He doesn’t have the perfect life, but he makes it work for him. But everything changes in an instant the moment he pulls Jenna out of that pool. He knows with one kiss that he will never been the same guy he has always been. He knows in an instant that she is something special. She gets under his skin and no matter what she does to push him away, he is not going anywhere. He sees something special in Jenna, even if she can’t see it. He sees something there. Could she be his forever?
When fates puts these two together, you wish, you pray and you hope with everything you have that he is going to be the one to pull her out of the darkness. But there is always one thing that keeps pushing her back, until he can figure out what it is, there is no telling what will happen. But still, you continue to wish, pray and hope.
This book was so much more than a cute little love story. It was heartbreakingly beautiful. Jenna and Logan’s story is beautiful. It is a reminder that faith and hope can do so much. It isn’t always what makes it better, but it is always a great place to start.
E.L. Montes does something so unique with this book. It is a poignent look at a scary disorder. This wasn’t just another book, it was a powerful story of love, loss, acceptance and most of all, life. The greatest gifts we are given in life are sometimes the ones that go unseen, but stay with us in our hearts forever. This book is one of those gifts. It is moving and touching and powerful.
Compassion and understanding are such beautiful traits to have, but when you see them in the light of a story like this, your heart just succumbs to them. This book blew me away and was like nothing I have ever read before. I didn’t see it coming, but I am glad it did. This book is worth five stars and more. E.L. Montes has written such a touching and beautiful story here that just touched so many emotions.
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