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Sometimes silence speaks the only truth.
Ryder Hawkley swallows his words the way he swallows his guilt. A life-altering tragedy keeps him locked away in a silent prison—a self-imposed punishment for a horrific mistake. His reputation…
Alexis Honeycutt arrives at college craving one thing—independence. Now, away from home and free from her family’s overprotection, she attends a party with friends that will ultimately change her life. The moment she spots Ryder Hawkley sitting across the room, Alexis is intrigued.
Dangerous. They whisper.
The intensity shimmering from Ryder’s haunting eyes beckons her, but Alexis vows to stay away from him. Only, she can’t seem to get Ryder’s unnervingly quiet stare out of her head.
Ryder is determined to ignore Alexis’s contagious smile the instant she strolls into the room. Despite his efforts, he is drawn to her and finds himself questioning everything he’d been holding on to for the past two years.
Tears streaming down my face. Not because this book had an awful or tragic ending, but instead because it was so beautifully crafted and written. It tugged at my heartstrings and the emotional connection to the characters overwhelmed my senses and left me reeling.
Ryder doesn’t talk. He is known as a freak and a weirdo, but no one has ever taken the time to get to know him as a person. Instead, he is considered psycho and scary. What all those people know is that he is living through his own personal hell on the inside and nothing is going to change that.
Alexis just started college. Her life is starting over. She has an amazing family, an amazing boyfriend and she is going to have an amazing time at college. But when the boy who doesn’t talk catches her eye at a party, she wants to know more.
Why doesn’t he talk, why can’t he smile? Is he really a mental case or can he find his way out of this terror? Maybe, just maybe he needs a friend to just let him be…
Alexis is such a strong character in this book. She doesn’t give into the peer pressure from her friends in regards to what she is thinking and wondering where Ryder is concerned. She sees something in his eyes. She knows she does. But bringing it to the surface is going to be a big challenge. Is she up to it? She doesn’t know him, she owes him nothing, but there is something about him that she just wants to reach out to. I loved her character because though Ryder was tough on the outside, Alexis showed enough strength for both of them.
Ryder truly is, in every sense of the word, the strong and silent type. He is fighting so much from his past and has to learn to deal with it. But no one has helped him get beyond the pain yet, it may never happen. But there is something about that girl and her sunshine effect. He hates that she can see into his soul but he is desperate for her to be a part of his life.
This book just stole my breath in the very beginning. You know the story going into the story. You know the pain, the hurt and the heartache. But the love and faith in fellow human beings is something that still just squeezes the heart. By the end of the book, I wanted so much for both Ryder and Alexis. They both deserved so much, but this book is an awfully big fight to get to what could potentially be something perfect and amazing.
Once again, I find myself fan-girling all over this author. Melanie Dawn writes such passionately feeling characters with so much heart. She tackles the tough stuff and makes it hard not feel for these characters on a very emotional level. This book is a must read for me and definitely added to my favorite books list!
I cautiously reached out to him. Grasping the back of his neck, I pulled him toward me again. Despite his fury, he let himself get tugged into my space. His angry breath was hot on my face. His narrowed eyes bore holes into mine. And yet, there was something else—something indefinable.
As I ran my fingers through the soft hair around his hairline, his breathing began to slow, and the muscles in his neck began losing tension. When his lips parted, I thought he might say something. Instead, he glanced down at my lips then back up again.
My mouth suddenly felt very dry, so I licked my lips. “To be here like this with you…” I moved closer to him, closing the gap between us. “To see the steps you’re taking for me….I just…I’m sorry…I just can’t help what I’m feeling. About you. For you. With you.” I held my breath for a second, partly thinking he’d fling me off of him and bolt for the door. But he didn’t.
Instead, he reached up and curled a strand of my hair around his index finger, gently tucking it behind my ear. I watched out of the corner of my eye, anticipating the moment his fingers would graze my skin. When his forefinger brushed against the edge of my ear lobe, I shivered beneath his touch. A flash of heat pulsed through my body, lighting my insides on fire. The hair on the back of my neck stood at attention. Every nerve ending on my skin ached to be touched by his gentle fingers. He must have noticed me quivering because his stormy, brooding eyes flicked toward the delicate skin of my neck, where I could feel my heartbeat pounding in the hollow crevice between my collarbones.
The way he looked at me, craving something and yet denying himself the pleasure, made me feel light-headed. Kiss me already, my mind demanded. He looked at me like he could do much more than kiss me. The quickening I felt down below was proof that I’d let him.
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Melanie Dawn is a thinker, a dreamer, and a hopeless romantic. She’s an avid reader who recently discovered her love of writing as well. When her head isn’t in the clouds, she spends her time as a a jack of all trades to her family. Melanie resides in the hills of North Carolina with her husband, her three children, and her cat.